2021 Nov 17
I was at my parents home. Jesus came over to visit with me. But I didnt realise who he was at first, other than that he was someone famous and we were very close friends in this dream. I was helping him, supporting him. He had these large fabrics with pictures on them, and he needed photos of them, and for them to be shared on social media, so I was taking photos of them. I was trying to find a good, clean flat area to place them on. My family did not help and did not get out of the way for me to do this. I ended up frustrated. But Jesus was happy and smiling at me the whole time, grateful that I was willing to help him. I remember walking past my brother and thinking surely he would recognise Jesus, because he is “famous”. But he kept walking as if he didn’t even see him. I couldn’t get all the photos done, only some of them, and in the end Jesus said don’t worry about it, we can do some more tomorrow. I felt so loved and appreciated by him, I wanted to give him a hug the whole time, but felt pressure to do the photos instead, because I knew they were important and I put off hugging him.
The fabrics with pictures = dreams and visions that Jesus gives me.
The photos are me writing out the dreams and visions and sharing them.
I feel like Jesus was telling me with this dream to relax and not put so much pressure on myself. It’s ok to take time to just hug Him or be with Him. I often put a lot of pressure on myself to get my dreams and visions out and also to do prophetic words for people, which is actually very difficult for me to do with all my commitments. I’m really sorry to whoever is still waiting for theirs. I really dont know when I’ll be able to start doing those again. But I have been thinking lately how its not my responsibilty to save people or help others any more than what I am capable of. I would love to save the whole world if I could. I grieve over the pain of what everyone is going through. But I know now, that it is Gods responsibility and it is by His power. We are only His vessels. But I absolutely love doing Gods work and I wish I could do more of it. I feel burdened too by people in my life who dont support me doing Gods work, and actually get in the way of me doing it, persecute me over it, and lay heavy burdens on me at the same time to keep me busy.
I also had woke up that day with a painful stiff shoulder/neck. He gave me a scripture in Matthew 23 about the Pharisees putting heavy burdens on people’s shoulders. I read the whole chapter and it sounded exactly like the people in my life and how they’ve been treating me. They are like Pharisees. I work so hard and its never enough for these people, while they spoil themselves selfishly and do nothing to help anyone but themselves and take advantage of others. I cried and rebuked and prayed for release from burdens, like I have many times. I still dont know why God hasnt released me and my children from the abusive situation we continue to suffer with…but I know He has a plan for us. After I prayed, I got this as a confirmation:
We need to stop beating ourselves up! We can only do our best. Satan is the one who accuses the bethren and makes us feel like we are not good enough, or not doing enough.
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” – Matthew 11:28-30
Please share your thoughts, God bless